People are really super nice and all, and they seemed to be happy that I was able to join them, and I guess I even enjoyed myself. But I just felt awkward, like I shouldn't even be around, like it would have been better for everyone if I hadn't been there.

I don't like the way I present myself sometimes, especially with people I don't know too well. Yet it's just the natural way I react. Either I blabber on about myself too much, or I just keep silent and really might as well not be there at all. My heart is palpitating now, and I feel like crying.

I feel uncomfortable when put in these social situations. Sometimes I open up pretty easily, but other times I just feel awful and want to go home. I kind of want everyone to just ignore me, so they won't have to be bothered with entertaining me or accompanying me or whatever. Yet when it happens, I do feel bad, even if it was what I wanted.

I often get a strong feeling that I don't belong, and I want out.