thank you

I am really really doing awful

I lost all hope, motivation, self-esteem, self-confidence, function, feelings and feel intense panic, depression, anxiety, crying, hopelessness, missing my past, overwhelmed

There is no cure for aging and dying and thinking about it and feeling it and remembering the past and missing it and wanting to go back and being depressed about losing my youth and not being able to do things freely, dream

I have no hope at all

I can't enjoy a single second even with my kids