Frustrated, sore, lonely, tired and unmotivated. Last night I was responding to a post here. Program shut down. Twice (and had I saved it? of course not!). Finally got it together and computer froze. Restarted. Froze again. Couldn't believe it(!!!!!) Gave up. Was struck by loneliness having access to you all cut off.

As mentioned before, back went semi-out a week ago. Spasms only lasted a couple of days (thank goodness!), but muscles all over back through hips are still super tight. Can't get comfortable. Been using legs to get anything even remotely low and can't decide which is worse now, the back or the legs(!) (not used to this much of a workout) So didn't sleep well all week and especially last night. Got up at 4 till 6 because of the pain of being horizontal too long and paced around. So of course brain had to start in on every bad/frustrating thing around and around. Emotionally want to curl up in a ball on the floor, but physically? That wouldn't be a good idea! Going to attempt sleep again now. Wake me when it's over! Not good at handling lack of mobility. Big baby, yup.

Almost didn't want to post this... you know? But everything is feeling like too much effort -- even responding here. So it's more of a check-in explaining myself so to speak. Am keeping up in short spells of reading, just not up to responding. Hopefully soon. Meanwhile, to all. Thinking of all my forum buddies.