I do not understand why, but for some reason love it always ends up terrible for me. It may even start out amazing, exhilarating, but usually always turns into something awful, dismal, or me full of soo much rage I wanna torture, torture, and sometimes even slaughter the person, I even have a tendency to obsessively love someone. I have had so many loves of my lives. So often though love it just turns out wrong for me. Lots of the times a friendship with someone I love is just too much, because I get soo easily hurt in the first place, and it's even worse when I love the person, hence the violent compulsions towards those I've loved who have hurt me. I just wish I could have a more easier friendship with those I love too, which is continuous happiness, and where I get along fine with my love, continually. Well, anyway the question remains why is a friendship with someone whom I love more unstable than a friendship with someone whom I don't love, and why do I get hurt my easier by someone I love?