Just living, surving and hoping that the mood swings to subside on the good side. I feel like I have a lot of energy but yet down in the dumps. This is where I go wrong because I always do something that will harm myself. I'm trying to keep up my head and stay away from the edge of no return.I talk to myself all the time to keep my head up and don't look down. Back away from the edge, calm yourself down, and tell yourself tomorrow will be a better day. I feel my soul surrounded by death and the blackness of my hole, darker than ever before. Why must I live like this every day? Is there any help out there for people like me.