Oh my god Yack... PLEASE do not beat yourself up like that! Depression and its effects are nothing to be ashamed of. I understand you. And I will say that intelligence and depression are unrelated. My husband is absolutely brilliant, and he was practically comatose for two years. Didn't work, didn't even get out of bed most of the time.

What kind of "fun job" do you mean? What's your idea of a fun job? As a first step, can you start a thread about it? Then, other members here who are interested in the same thing can maybe cheer you on to take each baby step?

What do you think?