Thanks Sanity

As always you are there to offer insight for me. I do think that i am ready for this relationship, I can't say that I would want one with anyone else other than Louis... It really does FEEL right. I don't want to date others or not to date... I do love him.

I think its more (like you say) that I get lonely and feel like I am - to put it nicely - swinging in the breeze while he is away. If I take a step back and look at it rationally, then the emotions that I do feel are frustration, sadness and joy - how can they all be there together LOL? Frustrated that he is away and that I miss the physical contact - touching hands, cuddling etc... Sadness that I can't have him here all of the time and then JOY that we have found each other and really the working away isn't forever.

Emotions are strange things, make you react to a situation in a way at probably isn't correct.. take a step back and then think about it and they are just feelings of the moment.