It was such a horrible day for me yesterday. It was proven to me that after all I'm not invisible and I don't have control of my body. I was at the store and suddenly I was overcome with a seizure. I had fallen to my side where it left me with bruises along the left side of my body. It was possible that I had a concussion. The ambulance was called but I decided not to go to the hospital because I know too well that there's nothing that could be done for me because once the seizure pass all I need is to rest. I'm left with bruises and a big knot on my head and an never ending headache. Later that day I had one other seizure but it was mild.

I feel so depressed because it reminds me that my life isn't as stable as I thought it could be. It reminds me that I do have flaws in my life and how I don't have control in my own life and I am limited. For awhile now I was doing well and for the first time in a long time I actually felt normal but with such a big incident it just put me back in the mindset that I'm not as normal after all

My doctor just recently approved for me to drive again and I just got off of disability and started a great job. Now I feel I have to go back to my doctor and let her know exactly what I've been going through but I know she'll go back on her words and won't let me drive and possiblly take me off of work and remind me that I should have the brain surgrey. She's been wanting me to do for years now but I refuse because I'm scared.

What am I suppose to do? Should I tell her or just go on my life and hope something like this won't happen again.