actually I'm alone every day(except my son and the class i have two days a week and work but they dont count right now) even in class i feel isolated. work i only talk to a couple people but I dont see them outside of work. my son isnt much adult conversation. I kow there are people out there, sometimes. They dont live near me or are more aquaintances than anything. I guess I'd like to make some sort of conection that I can handle being around for extended periods of time. I have found so far I cannot, and they dont really want to be around me for very long either. Not sure what it is. Perhaps its the reality I have a hard time with noise(its a trigger and I get migrains) i dont know just feeling low and like i will never have a lifelong relationship with anyone. I see everyone else I know have that. I know deep down there are others that dont and I get told and I know its ok to be alone. or my aunt never had anybody so you dont need that. I hate that line. Just because they couldnt find someone means I shouldnt find someone. I would like to be able to. realizing it may never happen. I know how others on here feel when they say they want to find love and feel lonely. I feel that too.