I think you have hit on something Belle. When you take a step back and look at this relationship with Louis now in the context of the bigger picture what do you see? What is the lesson it is bringing into your life now?

You have discovered it has a great deal to do with understanding your emotions and how those emotions play off of one another. Mix in the oddest of ways to react to the same condition. Maybe your fears have less to do with past hurts and more to do with future strengths.

A study on emotions and emotional intellegence might be in order.

Here are a couple of links that could start you off if you are interested... It will give you something to do to fill the time if nothing else comes of it....

Thes ones go into defining emotions...
http://changingminds.org/explanation...s/emotions.htm
http://eqi.org/emotions.htm

This one talks about emotional intellegence... even has a test you can take...
http://psychology.about.com/od/perso...onalintell.htm

Here's another test.... I love tests lol....
http://www.queendom.com/tests/access...idRegTest=1121

I am glad to hear you are seeking greater understanding. You sound up for the challenges.