He hit you!! He had no right. I know you care about him and what he might say to others but he is the one who should be walking the plank of shame. Not you. What would this cirlce say about him hitting you? If they have no condemnation for him then it isn't a circle of people that you need to care about.

You have been isolated for so long you are dependant on people that are not healthy for you. Could that be a factor.

There are millions of people in the world. You don't need to be stuck hanging around losers like him. Open yourself up to new people. A new beginning. A fresh start. Leave him in the dust.

Focus on getting well and let the rest go. You tried, it proved he was not worth your effort and now you get to move on. It isn't easy but it is better then staying stuck.

We all do things that we regret, that cause us embarrassment, that make us feel like hiding from the world but tomorrow is another day. Another beginning. Another fresh start. Make choices for you today that will brighten your tomorrows. Get on with the life you want. Get him out of your world. You deserve so much better.

Let this encounter with him be your last. He is so not worth it. So not worth you or your time and attention. You know that. It takes time to make it real. Each day you don't see him or think about him is a day closer to your bliss. Live for your bliss.