Hi, LittleMiss. I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time.

I really can relate. I too feel very alone. No parents, spouse, or kids. And I too have had some close friends distance themselves from me lately. So it doesn't leave a lot of people in my life.

All I can say is that it sounds like you're trying to make your life better. And you have to keep on keeping on. Just keep trying. Sometimes it's two steps forward and one step backward.

I wonder if you're seeing a counselor? I'm learning that some things are better left to therapy so as not to push away loved ones. They just can't handle all I'm going through.

I do believe that if you keep on trying, you will indeed change. Change comes about when one wants to make it happen. You certainly have that desire.

Hang in there. Hugs to you. --Carol Ann