first of all i am sorry for so much posting lately,,i am trying hard and have been experiencing alot of turmoil in my head .. i am beginning to have an overwhelming feeling of giving up and just live life the way it is..i thought i was doing something good for me (and the people around me).. but this is so hard .. should i just go through life as i am and fake it or will i crash and burn .. can i pull it all together without help ,, probably would be a rough journey but trying to change looks even rougher ..