((((((((Sophia)))))))))))


The thoughts of worthlessness get to me sometimes too, especially when I'm meeting new people because I feel like I'm constantly hiding something from them. But you need to remind yourself that there is nothing WRONG with being depressed or taking medication for it, any more than there's anything wrong with having diabetes and needing medication for that. It's a health condition, not a deficiency in your personality. And you may be pleasantly surprised by this girl's -- or anyone else's -- reaction when you tell them. When I told my boyfriend that I was taking antidepressants he just said "Oh, okay." And that was that. Sometimes we let our negative thinking build this up to something we think we should be ashamed of, but it's not! It's a totally valid medical condition and the fact that you're getting treatment for it speaks to your STRENGTH of character, not any kind of weakness. It's not easy to get help for this kind of thing. Besides, anyone who judges or disvalues you because of your depression is not worth having around in the first place.

If you're uncomfortable sharing with this girl about your depression right off the bat, that's fine. You're just getting to know each other. It's not something that has to come out right away because honestly, it's nobody's business but your own. Tell her if you feel it's right, if you feel you can trust her. Show her how kind and caring and fun you are for now ... there will be plenty of time for the other stuff later.

Sending lots of gentle hugs.