((((((((((((rainbow)))))))))))))

first, i owe you an apology. i am so sorry i have kind of gone awol on you. i can sometimes take on too much trying to help others and then get rather overwhelmed and shut down. my sincerest apologies for that.

i did make this analogy but then if you remember i later said maybe that is just another way of looking at transference. same experience but just a different paradigm to view the issue? if it isn't helpful to view what you have as an addiction then please feel free to throw it out. as for whether or not your therapy is helping i think only you can answer that. i do get the sense that you are making progress that you haven't made with your other Ts in the past. it sounds like you are doing some difficult work on childhood issues too. i think in time it will become clearer to you whether or not the therapy is more a help or a hindrance. take care sweet rainbow.