LittleMissSunshine,
Thanks so much for your response. yes I am def. scared of new things, especially living on my own again because I have failed at being independent everytime I have tried. I either end up in a group home or back with a family member, but most of the time I have had to move because I was not mentally stable and ended up in a group home. But this time I feel so safe here and secure. I know people, well at least they seem to know me and are very nice to me. i am actually going to a picnic here today with all the tenents or whoever wants to go. So that should be ok.
yes the memories are horrible and I don't want to believe they are true...so i call them visions, but the body is getting memories too and it's so hard to explain I guess.
Anyways, I have not tried EMDR and I don't think my T does that, but she is helping me as much as I am letting her at this point. I am fighting these memories hugely with her because of what I see in the visions and feel in my body.
Anyways, ty very much for your thoughts and questions. i really do appreciate it.
hugs,
jen