Bloom,

I didn't remember who said that about an alcoholic; thank you for replying and reminding me. I HAVE missed you; I just didn't know it was YOU.

When I emailed my T with that analogy, she replied that she didn't think that's how it is for me. She believes that my needs are very real and that she can help me.

You're right. This therapy is so different from any of my others. T is trying to give me some of what I missed; the others told me it can't be done. I'm feeling IN the sessions; I've never done that before. The child part is expressing her need for love, and T is giving it to her.

I got thrown off by my feelings about my last session, and hating my "pattern." But my T keeps telling me that it takes time, and that we're in this together. She is the most caring, compassionate T I ever had, and I really like the IFS (Internal Family Systems) model that she uses. I'm not sure about EMDR, but IFS fits me.

I appreciate your apology and your honesty, bloom.