no worries Jen, enjoy the picnic!!! and take a look into EMDR, they can't really explain how it works, but it does! it's used a lot to help people with phobias and stuff (i had a friend do it for her fear of flying) it's really quite amazing.

I know all will start to ease eventually, so don't give up hope! you made a great choice coming back here! i know i did too! we're here for you!