I don't know if this advice or what i am going to say is any good, but you are only alive for a short amount of time how ever depressing that may sound. It isn't a sad thing to say. I don't know the details of why you want to die and it must a the most awful and uncomfortable feeling, but you have to look around you and ask yourself what exactly you want. If you want to overcome this it will happen. And the moment you can say "hang on i don't want to die" is the moment you have realised inside you are worth something. The big deal is that your trying hard for you! Do it all for you and the people you love. Be proud of yourself you can admitt to these feelings and it means your half way to realising you know what is wrong, things can be ok! sorry if what i have said, you are seeking help which is fantastic i wish i could do the same! Emmaxx