I've posted a lot recently of different problems, ranging from financial, to depression, to family.

But suddenly it hit me just how hopeless I really feel.

I wake up like a zombie, getting through the day is like trying to battle through mud that goes up to your eyeballs.

The medication has taken away the last piece of attachment I really felt to this world.

Occasionally if I do feel something, but its either stress, or just nothing, a painful vast expanse of "space". Its the emotional pain which is so much worse than any physical pain I would ever have to endure.

Add to all this how I feel now. and I really am wondering what the hell I do next, if anything.