... reading about the therapeutic process... it gets pretty convoluted and frustrating. I told T that piecing together what I see here and there, here seems to be the theory:

if I come early for my appointment, I'm obsessive-compulsive;
If I come late, I'm hostile.
If I pay right at end of session, I'm showing resentment at having to pay at all;
If I pay at beginning of session, I'm trying to be controlling.

In one book I'm reading the T said her client did or said this, and she said it was clearly due to transference. It struck me that human beings are very complex creatures; surely not EVERYTHING we do is unconsciously driven by transference or some other compuslion. Are we incapable of doing ANYTHING on our own?
Just to make up an example, if you have some cookies and bring T one, why does it have to have some deep meaning? Why can't it be that you are just sharing a cookie, as you would with a co worker or the person sitting next to you on the bus?! Hey even Freud said that sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.

I guess I am feeling pretty trapped and overwhelmed by the whole therapy thing... Maybe this is an indication I should quit. ya think?