I need to go to the ER but just CANNOT because:

my son starts 1st grade tomorrow and I need to be there

my son has his first soccer game of the season on saturday and I need to go

I am on the school board and need to go to meetings

my daughter is in gymnastics class and I need to go

this is what I have been doing for the past two years

going against my fears and doing things anyway (even went on a plane to puerto rico then a small 8 seater plane to an island and went kayaking by myself in wavy waters) but there is no relief and I am worse now

I don't know what to do