Hello everyone. It's my first post on the BPD section... I realised a few days ago that it may be what is "wrong" with me. Neither of the other things that i thought i could have were fitting like this, I've been confused for such a long time.. My therapist never said anything about what i could have. I think she's not being the therapist i should have at this moment.. But I like her too much.
Anyways, i learnt about bpd by accident and things were really filling some gaps. I made a research about it and it was me in all the descriptions, and then i found this website: bpdfamily.com
There was this article about how people who have bpd love.. Talking about women, especially. That was my story. I even felt attacked, insulted. I felt like i was some sort of a monster.
I had the stupid idea of showing it to my boyfriend. I am kinda obsessed about telling him everything.. Even if it's really bad. When he read it, he was like ... so surprised, and his face suddenly had a new expression. As if he was really angry. He was seeing me as that monster described and he said that it was written for him.
He's been acting weird now.

I took a look to the BPDFamily Boards in the relationship part. People talking about how they could like survive so well without their bpd "loved one", how they should have left the relationship earlier cause those bpd guys can't love..

I'm in a bad shape. I do love. I know I do. More than most of the people are capable of. Even though I make awful mistakes. Even though I am really really angry sometimes. But I do love. I do love... It is love...
Why do they say that it's not?! Why are they taking it away? That it's some kind of... I don't know. This is hurting me too much..

What do you think about this... love thing?...

Hugs