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I don't feel like she did it to be malicious or to hurt me. I can tell she's sorry, and I know how talking to our mother can really push my buttons and I end up saying things I didn't intend to say, so I think that's probably what happened here.

I think I'm doing a good job of protecting myself from any fallout from everyone finding out. I had this moment when I first found out where I felt like I was falling apart, like my world was falling apart. And then I just sat on my couch and looked around me and reminded myself that "I AM OKAY. I'm still okay."

I didn't let the emotions bowl me over, but I didn't push them away either. I felt it, I cried, I called my T, and I was still ok.