Hiya Emma, It's nice to meet you here. Hope you get this reply.

You remind me of myself whenever I am in a relationship. I've had a few long-term relationships and I can honestly say I've felt paranoid and confused in every one of them so I know exactly where you are coming from. I tend to make the other person in my life the most important thing. I neglect my friends and whatever I am trying to achieve at the time. And I think most importantly I spend so much time worrying
and fretting about what my partner gets up to when I'm not around that
I can't appreciate him in the slightest. Plus I have nothing to say to him when I see him apart from 'what have you been up to?'

I think what I know now though is that this all comes from feeling unhappy with myself. Does this sound familiar? I don't love myself and so I can't believe that anyone else will love me either.
I think the best advice that I can give to you is to try and take your attentions away from your fella a little bit and concentrate on doing nice things for yourself and most importantly boosting your own confidence a little bit, pursuing other interests or friends.

I'm not in a relationship at the moment although I crave that kind of closeness, love and attention more than anything. I think that I am doing the right thing, I'm working hard on my own development so that I have something to offer to someone else when they come along.
I think the best advice I've heard about relatonships is 'You don't need to go looking or work hard to find 'the one' the right one will find you.'

Hope this helps
yours, marie