Maybe you can help me understand a bit better, Rainbow. When you say you can't regulate your emotions, what does that look like for you? And what are you associating with a "childish" need? I hear a lot of self-judgment. Try being gentle with yourself and turning down your critical voice.

I also have had a difficult time (at times) with receiving. What I discovered is that I would feel guilty and in turn feel bad about myself for feeling good. I try to remind myself all of the time now that it's okay...I can accept the joy and soak up the love.

I hope you are feeling better about this soon, Rainbow.