I'm sorry you had a hard session. I tell my T often that I'm going to stare the paint off his wall one day. I don't know how your T feels about email, but I think that it is great that you laid it all out in the email. You are expressing yourself. You might not be doing it in session - in that hour, but you are expressing yourself, your pain, your worries. That is progress. I have "talked" to my t way more through email than I have in person. Thankfully, he "gets" that about me and accepts that. I hope that your T is able to "read between the lines" of your email and gets to the heart of what you are really trying to say. I think it was very brave of you to send it.

Doogie