I am so sick and tired of the constant struggle to keep everything in order and running smoothly. My hours at work have just been cut, therefore everything else is now on a balancing board, debt to pay off, car to fix. I know we are all in that boat these days..along with all the negativity at work. My bosses are awful, but that is just part of life. I have to try so hard just to do everything how it should be at work, keep order, get things done..and its exhausting...too exhausting. I shouldn't be this tired. I'm in my twenties..

My boyfriend has left for 7 months, and even before that I've felt like this..maybe its circumstantial, but when I went to the doctor back in January his advice was that I need to become vegan. I hate feeling like I am making this up or being patronized for how I am feeling, and not being able to talk to anyone about this. I am struggling. Isn't it easy enough to see? Why is there no one to talk to about it?

I try too, to overcome things on my own. I work out all the time, I try to go out with my friends and have a good time, but nothing is fun. I go to parties, meet new people, try new things... Nothing brings the joy that it used to, nothing really every makes me feel upbeat. I just want to stay in my house and sleep. It feels like I'm being honest for the first time in years saying these things. I am just too tired of puting on my smile and getting through things. I want to live and be happy! I just dont know how to get there again.