Thanks zoo. When you have felt like that.. the lukewarm water feeling.. was there anything to break out of it? I do think it's in my best interest to process this with T while she's still around but I'm having a really hard time imagining doing that.

It's true I'm coping better than I was. I've been trying to spend time with friends almost every second lately but tonight I am alone and can't even think straight. I should clean the house tonight. I really should. BLAH.

WHY WON'T THIS T WRITE BAAACK?