Jexa, the first thing I thought of when I read your lukewarm water feeling was actually something I posted about on this board. Remember a couple weeks ago, when I had a post about self care and this kind of AH HA moment I had? But then when I came back and read it a few days later, it felt like...nothing. Just... _______. Blank.

Anyway, that was what I thought of. That and the situation I have going on in my extended family right now, which is upsetting on some levels but not as upsetting as I think it should be. I really had to talk it through with my T to make sure there wasn't some huge reservoir of feeling there that I was just refusing to look at.

I agree that it seems like a good idea to process this with T while she's here, so you can move into your work with your new T without a lot of unresolved feelings about this T. I guess the only way to do that is to tell your T how you feel, or how you don't feel in this case. That's always kind of my default answer anyway, though, because I think the Ts will automatically know more than I do on any given subject (except possibly U2 fandom ).

not sure if that helps, sometimes I think I say too much when I really should just shut up and offer hugs. Here you go!