Yes, I sure think you've diagnosed yourself correctly. Depression....You label yourself "just another depressed soul," and even that sounds like you're putting yourself down! But, on the other hand, you are wisely recognizing that there are many of us depressed people out here. (I'm Bipolar, so I've had downs--and ups.)

I know there's been a stigma in the past about people seeing a counselor, but that is changing....You've been in the church world. Is there a priest or some other church person who you could confide in? (Some of them do have training in counseling.) At least maybe they could point you in the right direction.....

I am very impressed with your background and your goals. Feel proud of yourself. (I know humility is important, however....) You do have a lot of things to struggle with. Your depression is certainly understandable!

As always, too, we are here to "listen." Hang in there!