Oh, WePow....you don't know how much you helped me just now. I probably won't hear from my T until tomorrow, and I'm feeling so yukky. Everything you wrote is exactly how I feel. How do you know that?

Yes, it is a yearning for what even THIS T can't give me. She can hold my hand, but the truth is she's a T, and she's going to "shatter my dreams."

It helps to have someone understand me because I don't know how to express these deep feelings of hurting.