Jexa,
I totally agree with Zooropa - you have made huge progress.
Don't be so hard on yourself, ok? You deserve some kindness.

About the T - can you call the T to follow-up on the email? I know for me, I have a major phone phobia, but in this situation I think the fear of calling a stranger would be trumped by the agony of waiting for a response. What if the T is on an extended vacation? What if your email accidently went into the spam folder and got deleted? What if the T never even got it, or maybe she wrote back to you already but YOU never got her email for some reason? There are a million possibilities. If it were me I'd be going crazy from not knowing.

Hang in there, Jexa.