I guess there isn't really exactly a solution to that, is there? Just maybe I will feel it when I am ready? Who knows. Or maybe if I write to T, a goodbye note or something. Ohhh. There's a little of the sadness. Blah. I don't WANT to feel it!!! And I don't WANT to talk to T about it.

It's so weird to talk to T about how I'm feeling about her leaving. I mean. It's just weird. It feels weird and awkward and like.. TMI or something? Even though I know there's no such thing as TMI in therapy. But because this is ABOUT her, it feels wrong to TELL her. T says that processing this will help with other relationships in my life. I don't wanna.

I don't know if I should try this T again. I don't want to be a pain. What if she was on vacation for Labor Day and is catching up or something? I'd hate to set a "needy" impression already. Even though this really is AGONY. How long is it appropriate to wait?