Yes, I can definitely relate. I often find myself there. Sometimes I move forward, sometimes I step backwards.. I can tell you, moving forward, when you can, is definitely more pleasant. Even if you're going through the motions at first. I often find that I am my own worst enemy when it comes to moving forward. There's always a still small voice that says "I don't want to!" - but if I ignore it and do what I know will be better for me, it shuts up after a bit.