Hi - I'm new to this forum, until recently I didn't even know there were SI forums on the net. But then I guess you can find anything on the net if you're looking for it.

I haven't cut myself in a long time, 3-4 years maybe. I've just been so depressed lately, I feel like I want to do it. I know it's not really going to make me feel any better, but I've been thinking about it quite a bit lately, anyway. Thinking about it just makes me more depressed. I promised my SO I wouldn't do it anymore, that was years ago, right after we got together. But I cut myself since then, he just doesn't know it. I'm afraid to tell him I'm feeling like this again. I'm having trouble dealing with my recent split with my parents. I decided about 2 months ago not to deal with them because my relationship with them was a total nightmare. I'm less stressed out since I don't deal with them, but I am a lot more depressed. I'm thinking too much about the abuse they heaped on me.

I got started on this tonight feeling bad because I'm sad and missing my SO who's off on a hunting trip. Weird how one thing just leads into another and another.