(((((jexa)))))
that's a lot of big stuff. No wonder you feel overwhelmed.
I'm having some sort of issues with my best friend, too, I don't know what exactly it's about, but it's hard. It starts to feel like there's nobody you can count on.

I don't know if this helps you or not, but if I was facing the things you just listed above I would be a complete wreck. Complete. And. Total. Just the part about losing my T alone would send me off into the stratosphere.

I guess I'm saying, it might not feel like it to you, but from where I sit you are handling this beautifully. The fact that you can cry, even if you don't know exactly what brought the tears up, is good. At least you have that release.

hang in there, Jexa. Everything is going to be okay.