thinking these things is a good sign to keep seeing your T and being on meds. Though maybe time to see about boosting meds or changing them? i don't know what u are on now, maybe anti-anxiety stuff might help?

please dont think u are selfish. u aren't. u are just in need right now. u can do it jen! not sure how into music u are, it's a huge thing in my life, maybe get some super positive and/or inspirational songs and make a playlist. listen to it when u are feeling down. do something to make yourself laugh, my one friend likes to really over indulge in a negative emotion when she's feeling it- so if u are feeling overly selfish, maybe put on a tiara and declare yourself queen of everything. just walk around the house over dramatizing it, it takes a lot of the seriousness out of it. (note- do it in private, other might not understand. hahahahah)