So, I saw the new pdoc today along with a student. I was as honest as I could be with her but it was a case of "have read your notes (BPD dx)" and that was all she was willing to consider. My cpn was told she wasn't allowed to come and I wish she had cos i wasn't listened to at all. Sleeping pills cos i said i wans't sleeping cos she wants to see if they affect my mood. I've doen it before, they dont. Sleeping pills i'm not usually allowed cos i tend to take them all.

but what's the point in taking the meds if they don't have an effect? I still cycle wildly and yes they might take the edge off but not a whole lot. so why bother?>

She's told me to reduce my mirtazapine while i'm manic - her words not mine - but why don't i just stop taking them alotgether?