I emailed T yesterday about how I felt. In her email back, she said that one of her favorite quotes is "The best way out is through". She accredits it to Robert Frost. I know someone here quotes someone else as saying it.
Anyway, she says it's hard because I'm "going through" it now, and she says to be positive that together we'll find a way. That makes me feel a little better, but doesn't change the fact that I feel more like just one of her clients. She started to say something in the session about other clients, and I stopped her and said I didn't want to hear it. I think it triggered my thoughts about the reality of the therapeutic relationship.