something my T said in sesson a few weeks ago keeps comming back to haunt me.she said that she feels selfish about sitting thare and not saying anything.she feels like she isnt doing her job.she then got up and grabed a ball and she had us passing it back and forth to each other.she said she didnt think it was good for me to just sit thare either.etc... at the time t didnt like what she had said it made me feel bad but i thought it was because i didnt want her to feel she wasnt doing her job.i have never seen anyone work so hard.BUT i keep thinking about it and this is what i'm thinking now.you know how sometimes T modle behaviors that they think are appropriate and feel you should see.i guess her saying that made me feel bad because if she feels selfish just sitting with me she must think i am selfish by just sitting and not talking to her.i never looked at me not talking as a selfish thing.god if i could just open my stupid mouth,i dont want her thinking i'm selfish.i guess who knows maybe i am.otherwise maybe i would just talk and make my life and hers a lot easier.she really has to work hard in our sessons.as she says like pulling teethi just want to scream to her that i am sorry now