UGH!! Ok, I just want to have a tantrum!! Yes, I know that would be SO not helpful at the moment. I KNOW logically that this was an unavoidable cancellation. It's not like he is just off playing golf or something, but I just feel so sad. But then, I feel so mad at myself for even caring. I wish I could be like "ok, big deal - see ya next week." That is how I want to feel. I don't like feeling so needy and attached and dependent. I don't like it at all! YUCK YUCK YUCK!