First, thank you all so very much for being here for eachother and for me.
It has made all the difference in the world.

Today's session was intense - as an understatement!
I had to deal with the massive flashback information from yesterday which involved very early CSA issues. Will not do details. But I ended up having to go into the flashback with T and allowing the little girl me to express herself. That was the opposite of fun! UGGG!

But I made it through. It was very strange because I did have to process things at the end of session a bit more in email. I dissociated for part of the experience and saw myself from above as I was going through the process. It made me very self-conscious at some points because I was so raw and exposed with the emotion. And I kept hearing my mom telling me to stop being so "dramatic" -- uggggg grrrrrr!

But after it was done with, I felt so much lighter inside.
My little me had been given back her baby voice!