((((((Queen))))))

Congrats on making these steps. It can all be very overwhelming I know. I am still trying to come to terms with accepting and trusting treatment myself so I can relate.

I think it is sort of like a volcano erupting when you finally ask for and receive that initial help. You have been holding so much in and coping on your own for so long it is like this huge release when you finally do ask for help. The vulnerability of it all then starts to bubble up a whole new and very foreign set of responses.

Breath.... echoe the words of the pdoc.... 'you are very brave' in your head and stay there without giving voice to the fears. Acknowledge that you are full of doubt and worry but return to the words of the pdoc.

You ARE very brave and you are making a choice to improve the quality of your life and the life of your children for years to come. The journey won't be easy and things won't turn around quickly but you are one step further on the road then you were yesterday. Be proud of your accomplishment today.

Wishing you a good night's sleep and a brighter, calmer view of things tomorrow.