i feel the same way in every aspect. im in a christian religous belief system. but not even that helps, but makes me feel worse. guilt of being a sinner. am i alone in being torn in that aspect? i have little to no self esteem period. i see myself as **** to be honest. but i hide it extremely well to strangers or even everyone. my wife is the only who sees it. help meeeeeeeeee. lol. i really do need self assurance im not nutty. i do take pills for my bi polar and my add. fyi. thank you for your time.