1. BIIIIIG rupture with T yesterday. Feels like a huge setback into anger and hostility; she says no, these are emotions that have long been repressed & are coming up now, and that's a very good thing. I hate that they are leveled at her, through transference. She said she is NOT giving up on me, that is so important for me to hear.

2. Have been struggling with guilt over the fact that she had postponed her vacation indefinitely till I got through some critical work; now she has been offered a free triip abroad so I no longer have to worry about interfering with her private life
In fact we essentially get a 3 week break and I think it couldn't have come at a better time. Changing to weekly sessions intensified the pressure more than I could have imagined (I am in awe of all of you PC folk who go weekly, or even more often!! )
I think when she gets back I may propose we go to a 2 wk interval.

In the meantime I get 3 wks off too, and from this end of it, I am OK with that. It will take a while to get myself put back together after yesterday's meltdown.