Thanks guys. So, whilst shaking uncontrollably and stammering, I called the T and left a message. Agh! I forget completely what I said. Something like, "Um, hi Dr. A, my name is ___, I sent you an email and didn't get a response, maybe it went to your spam. I had some questions for you, call me back, my number is ____." AGH! I did it I did it I did it I did it but OH MY GOD. Now of course it's replaying in my mind "maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam maybe it went to your spam"

But. I did it.

googley, I'm trying to do this one T at a time. Trying too many at once would be overwhelming.

BlackCanary, I'm going to try to clean the house tonight! I won't have to check since I already DID something about it and the message said that all phone calls are returned within 24 hours.

peaches, thanks -- I don't know how I feel about letting these feelings in but I guess it's best for me.

My thoughts are so disjointed. I'm still shaking.