Hello Minky,
welcome to our forum.. The light at the end of your tunnel has only been shut off temporarily, that string to that light is very well protected and within time someone very special will jump up high to grab it and let the sun shine,when you least expect it.you won't be lonely for long. but, it's a good thing you are because now is the time for you to focus on your self and the things you want to do in life, and find ways to make your self better. I have been depressed for many years now and every year it only got worse I would try and find people to make me HAPPY. not realizing happiness was within myself. I am on the road to recovery and still have a long journey. I was in a relationship for 8yrs and when it ended I thought my whole world had ended and no one could replace this co- dependant relationship I built my life around....5 yrs later I had a friend & that friendship became love a love I thought could never be replaced. don't ever doubt what other people are saying. you must give them the benifit of the doubt. or else you'll find yourself - by yourself....
trust me I learned the hard way and at this presant moment still trying to fix that part of my life. no one is perfect and if there is too much water under the bridge then hunney jump on your boat and start sailing b/c he ain't worth it... remmber you deserve the best in life. don't ever sell yourself short b/c of your heart.. I hope you keep posting and I'm more then positive you will enjoy our forum and the people that comfort you in here also . keep in touch
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Duchess~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MYGOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MYGOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1