I am in quite a depressive state for quite a few days now. The only respite is sleep. I have an appt with my Pdoc Monday afternoon. I am trying so hard to hold it together until then.

I keep asking myself why choose life? There is only one thing that keeps me alive now - knowing my son still needs me. I wonder when he will stop needing me.

I won't bother you to list my problems because you can't fix them. I am not sure even if I can fix them. I know for sure I cannot do anything in this depressive state. I wish it would just get better or get worse and be done with it.