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Originally Posted by WePow
One of the strangest things is that now I have a strong sense of power - of freedom.
It is SO strange because I am almost lost in it. I have a sense that suddenly the doors are all wide open. I do not know which way to look though?
Even at my job - it feels like I am a stranger now - very suddenly...
Anyone else experience this stage as a part of their healing journey?
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Freedom because you are not weighed down by this secret, having told T? Free because this part is not hidden, it's out!
Power from telling the truth, from saying I'd like justice for my little self?
I've definitely felt a sense of "who am I now?" It was tied to the evolution of my story, from "I got what I deserved" to "It was a bad thing that happened" to "He was wrong to do that", figuring out if I'm a victim or a survivor, what's my label?
At the time when I felt this most, I was working from home fairly often, or on a project where I was remote from the rest of the team (conf calls). It meant that my constant state of "who am I?" and navel gazing had less impact on work and was less visible to others. My husband noticed
It was a time when I was participating in a survivor's group, a 9 week support program sponsored by the city's Office on Women. It was a great place to talk about this "who am I and where do I go and what is next for this me-person?" stage.
